All this and heaven too

Quick update - Busy busy busy!

Managing to stay occupied with college work at the moment and not be distracted by Stupid Stupidson. And just keeping my eyes forward. Focusing on all the great stuff I have in my life and ignoring the stupid shit that just keeps on giving.

Not to say I don't feel like absolute horseshit, but I said I was going to stay positive and so I'm staying positive. Basically I look like this. All the time.

Viva El Sheldon!

2013 should be a good year. I've been accepted at university, the entry bar is so low I've already passed. I'm getting a new car. I've got another six months left at college with some of my favourite people. I've possibly got a UK/Belgium/Netherlands tour lined up with one of my favourite bands as the lighting technician.

Whoopa!

I have to let you go

Happy New Year everyone. I wish you all the love and luck and happiness in the world. I wish you an amazing year and I hope you win the lottery and attain everything your heart desires.

 

And you, I have to let you go.

 

The problem with being borderline in love with one of your best friends and violently denying it for six months is that eventually, he's going to find someone else, and eventually, you're going to have to accept it. Even if seeing them together is like a block of ice in your stomach. Even if you shake and shiver thinking about having to be around them for hours on end. And you know you've left it too late, you know he's moved on and something's changed and it's the worst feeling in the world. And at a time when you should be looking forward and being excited for the new year you dread waking up in the morning and things being the same hell they have been since you found out.

 

So, this ends here. I'm letting you go. I wish you nothing but the best but she's on my shitlist for life.